There’s not really much to say about today but I wanted to give an update in case any of you were worried about me considering in my last two posts I was very low. My period finally started yesterday, so that would explain why I was so low and nothing seemed to be able to get me out of it. Thing is when I’m experiencing depression as myself I usually have more control over it but when hormones come into the mix there’s not really a lot I can do but wait it out, which was difficult considering I was in such a rough state but I managed to get through it without hurting myself.
I’m still a bit emotional and rather anxious but definitely prefer this state over the way I was yesterday and the day before. My first few days of my period are usually heavy so I get absolutely exhausted and drained during this time, it’s more of a sleepy tired though which I like as its more… Comfortable than any other type of tired.
I was awake earlier than planned because of dreams about school but I stayed up as I had a zoom meeting with my support group later in the morning anyway. It was a good meeting, I was really tired during but after the meeting I felt a little more energised. I asked for a call with my support group leader so I could talk about my worries and how I’ve been, it was a really nice conversation and I felt better for it.
After that though it was about 2pm and I was still sleepy, I realised after everything over the past week or so and because of my period now I need/deserve a break so I just let myself go back to bed. I didn’t wake up until 7pm and since I woke up I’ve had dinner and added more pages to The Book Of Hope I mentioned yesterday. Here are the photos of them;
I have no plans to do anything over the weekend, no running, no studying, nothing but sleep for me as I am both physically and emotionally drained after the ups and downs of this past week. I may write some posts, I may not, we’ll see but I just wanted to let you know I’m okay and I’m doing better. Thank you all for supporting me through this time 💞
Take care and stay safe 🌈