In denial. That’s where, recently I’ve refused to acknowledge my mental health problems. So I’ve just been going through my days on my phone, playing YouTube videos like literally ALL DAY considering this normal and the best thing for me.
However I have skipped group therapy sessions (which have now ended) ignored my needs and have resorted to not even try anymore.
I wanted my life to not revolve around my BPD and Depression so I pretended it wasn’t a thing.
This One is short and left incomplete, I was writing it on a train coming back from Brighton I must have arrived on my platform and just left it unfinished. At the moment things haven’t been that much different. I do talk about my mental health with my friends (we’ll talk about them in another post) but recently I’ve been trying to push through the pain and get on with thing. I’ve been thinking about going into private therapy but honestly I just don’t want to, I know I need to (we’ll also get to that in another post) but I just don’t want to go through it again. I just want to get a job and go back to studying but of course with me that’s easier imagined than done.