DepressionDiaries: I Can’t… I Just Can’t

I feel like absolute crap (for want of a better word)

My anxiety has made my sleeping pattern worse, not even melatonin seems to be helping now. For example, today I woke up at 5 am and didn’t get back to sleep until 7:30 am.

Plus my stomach feels awful like how it was the week after my appendix operation, painful to the point that I feel nauseous. Like there is a gremlin in my stomach that’s punching my gut. I don’t know what set it off.

I skipped my art group today as soon as I fully woke up I knew I wouldn’t be up to it. My body feels heavy and so do my eyes but my brain has no desire to sleep. I just feel so physically exausted. I did some aerobics yesterday, maybe it was that, am I really THAT unfit?

I tried to do some stuff but my body was  like “Nope” and I proceeded to lie in bed watching YouTube videos just like old times! 

Ugh I hate this. My brain is all pumped up to do stuff but my body isn’t. Oh well I’ve been going out a lot this past week or so perhaps I should be resting up.

NI2M 😴


3 thoughts on “DepressionDiaries: I Can’t… I Just Can’t

  1. Rayne says:

    Oh I know that lack of sleep so well. Insomnia is a bitch. Some nights I’m lucky if I get 4 hours of sleep. Like last night I woke up at 3am and couldn’t get back to sleep. After having only fallen asleep just after 12. 😦 I need to get my sleeping pills. The days feel way too long with too little sleep. I love those very rare days I get 6-7 hours of sleep (only thanks to Xanax, lol).

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