DepressionDiaries: Christmas Panic Attack

Christmas can be a stressful time of year and don’t I just know it. A while ago I made a post about how my moods have been all over the place and worse than usual then on Christmas day it all came to a head. I was finally able to give my mum, sister brother

DepressionDiaries: What’s happening to me?

A few days ago I started to get really bad anxiety causing breathing, sleeping, eating and stomach problems. More than that my mood swings seem to be far worse than usual, well usual for me anyway. I mean yeah I have BPD so that can be expected but something is different now. I’m crying or

DepressionDiaries: Simply Having a Wonderful Christmas Time

Yesterday was a brilliant day. I didn’t write about it sooner because I was so exhausted. Myself and a friend went ice skating in the town centre although there was no real ice just smooth plastic, close enough though considering it was my first time putting on skates.  It wasn’t just my first time skating

DepressionDiaries: Bibliomania

I’ve recently come across the term Bibliomania which is an obsession with collecting and even hoarding books. Although it is not recognised as a psychological disorder itself it is said to be a form of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. For years I have bought and collected books but would only read a few of them usually

DepressionDiaries: What I Want For Christmas That Money Can’t Buy

I think the most common thing people would say is Happiness but for me I think that expecting to be happy with my life is a bit far fetched. I remember reading an interview a magazine had with Demi Lovato who has Bipolar Disorder and what stuck with me about that interview is Demi’s view

DepressionDiaries: The Most Wonderful Time Of The Year?

I love Christmas time, always have. The Christmas songs, the food, the excuse to buy loads of stuff and not feel guilty because it’s Christmas. But this year things will be different. My nana has terminal cancer at age 80 so is far too fragile to cook Christmas dinner and will be too exhausted to

DepressionDiaries: Christmas Job Disappointment

So a few weeks ago I applied for a job at my favourite bookshop out of town  but I haven’t heard back from them. Just like the bookshop job in another town I applied for in the job hunt begins.  This was only a part time temporary placement over the christmas holidays but I wanted