Don’t get too attached that’s what I tell myself when I feel like I could be close friends with someone in my class.
Remember how many friendships have gone wrong. I sometimes look at people in their group of friends, laughing, enjoying eachother’s company and think how do you make it work like that?
Remember how often you’ve been hurt by people you thought were your friends. I look at my reflection. It’s still me, I’m still here but who am I? They say you’re friends define you but what if your friends lie, manipulate and use you? What does that make me?
Alone… and better off that way.
Don’t get me wrong I like the people in my class and I still have a few friends but I feel like I need to distance myself from everyone for the sake of self preservation at least until I can make sense of how friendships work.
Since I started college I’ve been spending most of my breaks doing coursework and would sometimes have lunch with classmates but would then go to the library after about half an hour. I prefer to observe and listen to others rather than talk, you learn a lot about people that way…
Song of the day: You‘re So Creepy by GhostTown