DepressionDiaries: Don’t Get Too Attached!

Don’t get too attached that’s what I tell myself when I feel like I could be close friends with someone in my class. 

Remember how many friendships have gone wrong. I sometimes look at people in their group of friends, laughing, enjoying eachother’s company and think how do you make it work like that?

Remember how often you’ve been hurt by people you thought were your friends. I look at my reflection. It’s still me, I’m still here but who am I? They say you’re friends define you but what if your friends lie, manipulate and use you? What does that make me?

Alone… and better off that way.

Don’t get me wrong I like the people in my class and I still have a few friends but I feel like I need to distance myself from everyone for the sake of self preservation at least until I can make sense of how friendships work.

Since I started college I’ve been spending most of my breaks doing coursework and would sometimes have lunch with classmates but would then go to the library after about half an hour. I prefer to observe and listen to others rather than talk, you learn a lot about people that way…

NI2M ❤
Song of the day: Youre So Creepy by GhostTown


3 thoughts on “DepressionDiaries: Don’t Get Too Attached!

  1. asafeplaceblog says:

    I relate to this so much. I watch everyone I was once friends with in elementary and middle school on facebook and theyre all still friends. I stopped trying to maintain friendships long ago but I still lurk and wonder to myself what life would be like if I had a group of friends. I have a best friend and she has been my bff for nearly 15 years, it only works because we’re both bat poop crazy and go extended periods without seeing one another. It’s hard to find someone to understand, but bad friends, good friends or no friends, its no reflection of who we are. They say those with more intellegence tend to be loners. I’ll go with that one haha

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    • normalistoomainstream says:

      Thank you. Your comment makes me feel better about myself, I will totally go with the intelligent people are loners thing as well XD I’m glad you’ve found someone who you get along well with, I hope your friendship coninues for many more years. I hope to get a real good friendship at some stage in my life ❤ xx


      • asafeplaceblog says:

        You will! The best ones are worth waiting for. The way i see it, people like us have the ability to truly cherish something most people take for granted. In the long run, its almost seems worth it!

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