DepressionDiaries: A Bad Grade DOES NOT = A Bad Life

Here in England is the time where thousands of high school and college students go to collect their GCSE and A level results. I would have been joining them if I hadn’t dropped out of college three months early; I know that’s not very long but at the time my depression was so bad that I struggled to make it through a day at college yet alone three months!

In England, since the whole Brexit incident, we have gone into recession which according to an article in a british newspaper is putting pressure on students to achieve good grades. Unfortunately with this more students are having to battle anxiety and depression as the pressure builds to do well in exams.

Students going into meltdown (like me) because they got a bad grade or a few, we’re conditioned to think that if we don’t do well and we don’t get good grades then we’ll never make it in life and have little control over our fate.

Well, I’m here as proof to you that this is not the case. I got a U in my psychology exam 2015 and this sent me spiralling down into depression because of how much pressure is put on students to do well. I tried to scrape my way through my second year at college but my depression kept getting worse as the pressure to do well mounted.

In the end I had to leave for my own sanity but just before I left college I decided to volunteer in a charity shop, so when I did leave college I was able to work instead, I may not have been getting paid but it put great work experience on my CV. I also went on the hunt for a new college and now I’m going to be attending one that doesn’t worry about your previous grades (apart from maths and English but then if you didn’t do well they’d just get you to take them alongside your chosen course) they just look for a genuine interest in the subject/s you’ve applied for.

There are also adult classes at some colleges to help you gain experience and grades (these you may have to pay for). So what I’m saying is, if you don’t do as well as you wanted in your GCSEs/A levels or you don’t get accepted into the college/university you wanted, it’s not the end of the world and life will offer you plenty of opportunities to go further in life you just have to look out for them, which I understand may be hard if you’re in a state of hopelessness but trust me as someone who has been in that position life does NOT end when school/college does.

Now I’m not saying that school is a total waste of time, in school you learn what kind of subjects you are interested in, what type of people you get on with and education is important but exams won’t necessarily reflect your intelligence just how good your memory and your wording is on the day; bear in mind anxiety can affect your memory and mental health problems can affect your ability to focus and write.

If you think you may have a condition that affects your ability to do exams it’s best to get it checked out by your doctor and see if you can get extra help with exams, I may be getting tested for dyslexia as I show some signs of it, honestly I probably should have got tested years ago…





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