DepressionDiaries: Sad Happy Times

I went to this place called dunstable Downs with my family which is a place where people go to fly kites and have picnics it’s a lovely place to go during the summer but you still have to wear a jacket because it’s so windy up there! 

It was supposed to be a fun day out and it was really nice to spend some time with the whole family and take shots of the beautiful place. However I felt a sense of foreboding and although this was a happy time I felt a pang of sadness because I knew why we were having this day out.

My nan always loved dunstable downs and since finding out about her terminal cancer she has been wanting to relive some of her favourite parts of life. She wanted to see us all together smiling and laughing as we try to get the kite to stay up and fail.

She wanted to relive this moment like the old days before her condition deterioated too much for her to enjoy these kinds of things. A feeling of dread lingered over me that day as i knew that this may be the last time we do something like this with my nan. 



6 thoughts on “DepressionDiaries: Sad Happy Times

  1. anaya024 says:

    Stay strong🌟. I have lost my nan to cancer and it is painful and it has left a massive hole in my heart. However you just have to move forward with your life, no matter how painful and scary. Just keep an open, positive mind and just pray that that wasn’t your last day out with her. You can do this, stay strong and positive and you can do anything. Take care x

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  2. Rayne says:

    I’m so sorry my friend. All you can do is cherish every moment you have with her. Maybe you can ask her to write you a letter, and you can write her one too. I have a birthday care that my grandmother gave me the one day and she had written such a beautiful message. It’s been 15 years since she passed away, and every day on my birthday, I take her card out and read it. It’s comforting.

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