DepressionDiaries: My nan may have cancer…

I honestly don’t how to put this… My nan went to the dentist today and the dental nurses noticed swelling in her mouth there was no pus which means the swelling is likely the result of cancer.

I’m really upset right now. I feel like I’m about to cry. It hasn’t been confirmed yet and my nan will be heading to hospital tomorrow. I’m honestly not getting my hopes up that it isn’t cancer because if I were to be optimistic the blow of the C word would hit me much harder.

If it is cancer I will not be going with my dad, half brother and H (my dad’s partner) to France because I want to be with my family if … something happens to my nan. If I did go on holiday it would probably be two weeks of destructive anxiety and begging my dad to take me home because i’d be so worried.

Anyway um just thought I would let you know. I really want to call someone right now but who is there to talk to?

NI2M

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4 thoughts on “DepressionDiaries: My nan may have cancer…

  1. Blooming Lily says:

    Hang in there… there’s nothing like getting that news. 😦 My mom has been battling breast cancer for 9 months and is finally headed into recovery. All she has left is 8 weeks of radiation. I never believed that she would live to see this day. I don’t know what your nan’s situation is, but I bet there is hope, even though it doesn’t feel like it. Hugs to you ❤ xx Blooming Lily

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