Over the past 5 -6 days I had been doing really well, I was able to get a lot done, go back to work and enjoy my life. However today I feel like absolute crap, this morning it was difficult to get up, I don’t feel up to doing anything that requires me to leave my bed, my appetite sucks and I feel like crying when there is absolutely no reason to. The only consolation is that I am not suicidal or feel the need to self harm, probably because I’m too tired to muster up the energy to hurt myself.
This has happened before, I would have a period of time where I would feel great and be able to do what I want and need to do and then one day I’ll wake up and feel awful, I call this “The Crash Down” like I’ve been flying high for a while and all of a sudden I drop straight down to the ground, no parachute or anything.
I’ve switched my phone off so I won’t have to talk to anyone and just want to go back to sleep but I can’t because I’m hungry but I don’t want to eat anything. Hopefully I’ll be okay soon.
Song of the day: Hope of Morning by Icon For Hire