Last night I went to the pub with a couple of friends, it was the second time we had done it this week, both times I had a pint of cider. First night I was alright, just drowsy from the medication, and last night’s pint seemed to have the same effect.
I was so drowsy that I went to bed and slept pretty much as soon as I came home. However things took a turn for the worst when I woke up at about 5am with really dark, suicidal thoughts and the urge to cut myself.
The second pint on the second night out seemed to amplify my depression. Even now I feel exhausted and ill although I went back to sleep at about 7am and didn’t wake up until 1:00pm.
I’m supposed to be skyping with those pub friends later on but I’m not sure I’m up to it because I feel so rotten.
It sucks having depression. I’m 18 I should be able to have a drink with my mates without worrying about how will affect me because of my illness and medication!
Song of the day: Don’t let me get me by P!nk