I’m awake at 4:30 am… again. I slept from midnight until about 1:00am and I haven’t been to sleep since. I’ve been having a lot of nights like this especially since I’ve got this game on my phone that I’m really hooked on. I use it as a distraction because late at night is when my depression is at it’s worst so I try to stop myself from thinking, thing is these distractions are also stopping me from sleeping.
I’ve been off work for the past two weeks and I think I should go back soon because it seems o help me. Problem is I’ve been so tired lately because of lack of sleep. I’ve had little interest in doing anything recently, even blogging. Fair to say I’m struggling but I think the game is helping me while also sabotaging me but it is the only thing I’ve been enjoying lately.
song of the day: Formation by Beyoncé