last night was my first night using a sleeping pill. I took it at about 10pm and fell asleep soon after. However, for some reason, I woke up again at around 2am and spent an hour talking to an online friend before drifting off back to sleep.
I woke up to take my fluoxetine tablet at 10am, as usual and swiftly went back to sleep. Before I knew it, it was midday and I’d slept the morning away. I still feel tired but also good, I feel comfortable and a bit woozy but apart from that, I’m okay.
I decided because of how wiped out I feel, I would rest for the day. I’ve spent the last few hours watching a playthrough of a game called Libretta.
Libretta was an interesting game where the character you play gets lost in a library and, by reading a certain book you get sucked into another world. I won’t spoil too much of it but from what I know of the game, it has a story about wanting to be accepted for who you are and the fear of not being yourself if you live up to other people’s expectations, something I can relate strongly to since, I believe that was the trigger for my depression. I worked so hard to live up to others expectations and make them happy that I felt I wasn’t in control of my own life.
Here’s a link to more information about the game if you’re interested:
That’s all from me today,